NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
I was in a marriage that, for 13 years, he criticized every single thing I did.
I laughed too much.
I held my fork wrong.
My whole lifelong dancing career was evil + not righteous.
He claimed I wore makeup or brightly coloured clothing because I was being vain + only trying to draw attention to myself.
I was constantly told I needed to repent...and that he was using his God-given authority to wash away my sins.
Yes, girl, I was with a fanatical fuck.
The fact that I let it go on for that amount of time...is ridiculous AF to me.
As before this, I was a pretty confident, outspoken, independent girl from NYC.
But tbh, I stayed because of our kids...and I was bent set on those kids not having divorced parents like I did.
At some point, for my sanity + safety, I took the kids and left.
And I started over.
Happily on my way to rediscover + reinvent, on my terms.